Wednesday, June 12, 2013

My Life's Chronicles: Benguet Missions

Okay, I have posted some questions in my intro that I wish to find out about my life.

I'll start with the most recent ones.

No matter how short or how long, I will strive to make my posts of this series one milestone per post.

I guess this will make it easier for me to track.

Oh and one more thing.. from here on out, most of my posts might become too random and senseless, mostly because I'm just typing whatever comes to my mind regarding the event (so as to keep the authenticity of my memory of the event... or what remains of it hehehe).

Benguet Missions 2013
This is one very precious moment in my life where I was reminded of the joy of my salvation all over again.
I was blessed to be invited to become part of this missions team. I'm with the praise and worship ministry and at the same assigned to 6 wonderful kids (Genesis, Genesi, Kevin, Judy Ann, Jack, and Rachel) and an awesome BS partner (Blaise).

This mission trip is one big turning point in my life from the "me" that I've become back in college (maybe you'll see more of that in my later posts).

It was actually in this missions trip that I learned about this life chronicling from a dear friend of mine.

It is also the 9th month since my break up with "her" (memory, you know who she is I don't need to mention it).

This is also the time when I've been struggling to "love" again or not... Out of the blue I started to have feelings for a certain person in our team whom I've known for a long time already but never really have feelings for back then.

Am I ready to let go of the past? Is it the right time to move on? Why now? I've known her for so long.. why have feelings for her now??

Questions keep popping in my mind and it has been bothering me.

Then I asked God take captive of my thoughts and emotions. I mustered all my strength to focus on HIM and true enough God is faithful. :)

The feelings didn't go away but somehow it didn't also stop me from worshiping and serving God in sharing His gospel to the delegates of the camp, especially to my 'kids'.

This camp is also the first time I experienced God's tears. Sadness showered my heart like storm when I felt His heart saying "I am grieved for those who haven't heard my love story for them.."

Through the camp, God showed me that He still loves me. That I should snap out of this self-pity nonsense and sinful living. And start taking actions. He showed me His tears and truly it saddens me how He is grieved for the unsaved souls.

I want to make a difference for Him, and I want to reach to the people who haven't heard of God's ultimate love story to the world. Jesus Christ.

My Life's Chronicles : Intro

A dear friend of mine once taught me that "You are a product of your past".

The book of Chronicles is a compilation of stories of the people of Israel. Not just stories but significant stories or milestones that brought about priceless learning and how God was worked in them through the years and across generations.

I am now 22 years old, so that means who I am now is a product of my 21 years of "past".

Of these 22 years of living, I have never once thought about what my life had been. Not a flashback, nor a trip down memory lane. (Well, "never" is such a strong word, let's just say I don't really make an effort to look back and think about my past).

How much have I changed?

Who am I back then?

Who am I now?

If God said that He's the same yesterday, today and forever. Is that true in my life? How?

Let's find out...